consciousness

i think i could handle things by myself
i think the world care about me..

shit, i'm fooled..

it tricked me..

i hate to say that i am not ready
not prepared
not even close to settle

words can't help me turn things off
it only stirs
clamors..

keep my head straight..
keep my mind sane..

i got to get my consciousness

i yelled to Thee...

no answer..

i begged for miracle

none happening..


this is the time to guttered myself
hoping someone help me to sober...

i wish you understand
i wish you not to blame..
i wish you know my existence

i ain't not ready for this
no fucking kidding..

throw me to the ocean
drown me along with my intuition
with my fucking admiration..

do you hear me?