A passion or desire?

Looking at the mirror I saw myself smiling..

Was that a real smile?

Was that a hunch?

You were thinking of something horrifying...

Driven by desire, a lust, or a sincere curiosity?

Can you hold on to it?

Won't you let it slide?

Can a human cross the boundaries between evil and compassion?

Am I believing in God or just blindly guided by mass conception?

The hell it was about?

A purity?

Was it?

A deceitful craving..

I do not know what it was or what is it..

I may never know...

A new challenge has arisen!

Life is evolving indeed..

I felt it was just yesterday, when chasing dragonflies and collecting grasshoppers kinda fun thing to do..

Now, dealing with people, which sometimes is tiring and unbearable..

It was fine to be just you back then..

But nowadays, you kinda sometimes need to act like someone..

Well, that's life and it is evolving..

I was single and clueless bout relationship..

Now I am a father with a son and about to be a father with a daughter as well..

How exciting!

Distance is still playing tricks..

do not know how to act accordingly..

Putting my faith into Him is something that I can only do right now..

Well, no one knows exactly what happen and will happen to me..

I am just doing the best that I can..

Being the best that I can..

Hopefully, my consistency bears fruits!

I still do..

Curiosity

Some say "Curiosity kills"

I might say it is true..

As one follows its heart,

Another follows its passion..

That may lead into happiness..

As well leads into madness..

yet, no one sane live without..

I might truly believe there's no limit in it

As limit can only be divined by certain rules or belief..

I might have to test it everyday, till my one last breath...

The Land of Hopes and Dreams

I woke up and stumbled upon a land 

Looks vaguely empty

But somehow seems lively

I wander around and slipped

Thought it was from something obvious

but, I still curious

I saw people at corner

I saw more of them in the center

I yelled but no one answer

I screamed but no one wonder

Was I really at where I should be?

Or I should really be somewhere else?

Some say it was the land of hopes and dreams

I really think it was a land I hope I can dream...

Saving vs Investing

This is my personal note and personal perspective toward the title.

I would mostly address this thought towards my son.

Hopefully, by the time you reading this you would understand my point of view.

So, my parents never ever taught me about investing. Instead, they kept telling me to save and save.

It is good and not bad at all.

But, you gotta know that your grand father are not investor.

So what's the different?

What makes them different is what is called inflation.

Saving is good if something that you save is not affected by inflation. One very good example is Gold.

But, if  what you save is money.. You made a dumb move..

Please do research on "inflation" and browse some more information on "Zimbabwe" "Venezuela" "Argentina" and other countries that face inflation.

So, do you get my point son?

Anyway, do your best in what you do best!

What does it takes to be a great man?

 I am nearly 36 years old when writing this.

Reflecting to my younger self, when I felt there was a surge of energy flowing all over my body.

I did not easily get exhausted yet, why I was so fragile inside?

Growing up is not that easy..

Especially, if you are coming from a not so privilege family.

Yet, I survive the waves..

Still standing and laughing back at my stupidity..

I know I have enough, not to suffer from starvation but, not really having a chance to indulge myself in luxury either..

Just remember, be sane and a little bit ambitious won't kill you.

Do not forget that you can't have everything in this world but, you may get a chance to taste something that you always dreamt..

Keep it real, be consistent and never stop..

You might never have a clear goal in your entire life but, choose to be consistent to what you are doing. You may achieve something on day..

And though, I am not that spiritually mature..

I still trust Him and believe Him as my true savior..

So son, what does it takes to be a great man?

You know what..

I do not have anything to answer that question.

Trust me though, I would always be happy to assist you to be as close as one!

Love,

Blood sugar!

 Hi son!

This is your daddy again!

I would like to say a thing or two about my medical conditions.

Just so you know, at the time I write this post, I am fit and healthy. Though, I would like to mention that you most likely inherit my gene. In this case, me my father (your grandfather), my grandfather (your great grandfather), and some of my uncle and aunt mostly from my father's liege were prone to diabetes.

Hence, it is good for you to keep your diet especially in your 20th and late 20th, and of course keep your body at the most fit condition. Meaning, do exercise regularly and consistently. 

You have to keep in your mind that you inherit my gene and your mum's gene. This would actually help you to grow as a fine man! 

I love sports such as football, badminton, volleyball, etc. However, I do regret that I did not exercise more. I may have a better built body now but, I should actually have done more exercises in my youth.

Therefore, the faster you get a well built body the better. Trust me, it will worth!

Love,

Daddy

Starting new history!

I would love to wrote this note to my future son!

Hi son, how are you? how old are you when reading this?

So, I was made a big decision in terms of my life our life and our family life.

It has been a while I was taking care of you, changed your diapers and also fed you with some dorry!

I know sometimes you did not like it and spat it out.. Well, that's ok.. 

I really miss that too!

I love you and your mum.. However, I decided to take a job further from you guys so that I could actually be more helpful to the family. As a man and a father, it was not an easy decision to leave you guys behind!

Hence, on this note I would like to say my sincere apology!

I hope you guys are doing well and growing well!

On a side note, you were 3 years and 6month years old when I wrote this.

I will write this kind of notes and hopefully you could learn something in the future!

Love,

Daddy