Rational

rational...

i yielded to you

i spoke to you

could you not disagree with me

i'm just yet to be born

shallow life

disgrace

indignity

how i could presume your existence if you're not stick to my plan?

weird, such a weird feeling of a man who could think about and care about himself...

rational..

you face such a misery in time being...

such rational thing turns irrationals

vice versa

yet, to whom i should stand behind?

when it comes to problems and controversy


oh my,

the world is at stake

none, keeping their heads straight

none, keeping their mind clean


should i follow this trickery

or should i stand on my ground and witness the world crumbles with its already degrading morale..


oh my,

i just wanna life

with only pure rational

consciousness

i think i could handle things by myself
i think the world care about me..

shit, i'm fooled..

it tricked me..

i hate to say that i am not ready
not prepared
not even close to settle

words can't help me turn things off
it only stirs
clamors..

keep my head straight..
keep my mind sane..

i got to get my consciousness

i yelled to Thee...

no answer..

i begged for miracle

none happening..


this is the time to guttered myself
hoping someone help me to sober...

i wish you understand
i wish you not to blame..
i wish you know my existence

i ain't not ready for this
no fucking kidding..

throw me to the ocean
drown me along with my intuition
with my fucking admiration..

do you hear me?

hemorrhage

hemorrhage,


i feel pain, bloody painful
my nerve is shaking
my head is trembling

hemorrhage, hemorrhage, hemorrhage...

i know what you feel, but you don't know mine
i feel your pain, but you don't feel mine

hemorrhage, hemorrhage, hemorrhage...

end this feeling to end this madness
end this bleeding to end this emptiness

you know what?

You know what,

i'm fucked up..

you said i got my sense, that's bullshit..

i ain't got nothing..

just distance..


unreliable dogma
unrealistic truth

i swear to myself to follow none of that mystical being
devil tries to seduce me with its lust and desire

with those fucking horrific nonsensitive graphics

fuck, fuck those portrayal fuck those libido

i ain't got nothing real

promises, promises, and promises

fuck, my world is fucking doomed



i wish i could erase those memories

restart my brain and begin load friendlier image

fresh thought

fresh mind


oh God, i wish you could be the one that shows me a way...

this madness is killing me..

is killing me..

no title

i hate to say to myself that i felt so ruined

ruined by my fucking desire and lust...

i said to my self that i am a strong guy

but it turns out i'm just a fucking weakling

i can't handle myself

i can't handle my fucking desire..

so??

i lost to something that i always be my fantasy...

fuck i say to my fantasy!!!

now, i want to grow myself better...

no such this and that fantasy..

enough with that shit..

enough with that nonsense

enough wasting time


now it's time to move

it's time to improve

it's time to unrevealed the things

i know i can

i know...