Prejudice

Talk to me about your preassumption

Judge me through your intuition

conclude without considering any action...


am i that delinquent?

am i not worthy of trials?


if your way of perception is in some kind of inception

of something so called imagination,


what truth meant to you?

is it just merely a concoction?

Shattering Glass

i see the glass break and smashed into pieces

i see myself on its little particles

reflects my portrayals

some can be clearly seen, some not

it cannot be fixed nor mended

i searched for the best part of pictures

yet, i got so many splinters from the worst one

and i realized that

the moment it burst...

is the moment that i got to be strong...

since the splinters could not be taken out of my hand...

a Threat

What if i told you that i want to suffocate you to death!

do you just smile, doubting my intention?

or, terrified with feeling of horror?

whether i really meant to do, or i just felt that i want to do that,

you should always remember!

what men are capable of!

...

Eyes that can see through darkness

eyes that can see through darkness...
see only bright light and no sadness...
no night in sight
just light..

so clear and pure
like the flawless cure

see the nature
as immature

glancing the deer
without the spear

no blood spill
unintended to kill

a constant feel
for no ill

eyes that can see through darkness...
see only bright light and no madness...

Stratification

who are you?

the have? or the have-not?

social injustice

everybody have their right

God made us from the same material...

what makes it different?

i'm questioning my class stratification...

why should people depend on a thing called money?

a lesser god that stirs people

drives people into such maniac...

economy, politics, social, WAR

camouflage of madness

authority, bureaucracy

HEDONISM

reality or vague?

living the life will never be the same

as time perennially moves

whether it is slow or light-speed

life is trying its best to adapt and to move

yes, any life...

poor or rich

nobody escapes...

it is harsh

yes it is...

yes it is...  

To them claimed superpower

you're not born in the world of perfection...

yet, you mocked me with your genuine intuition...

you claim yourself as the one with pure idealism...

yet, you dominate the authority...

who are you?

i don't even know who you are...

stop messing around with your such imbecilic attitude...

you're not even close to please my appetite...


i just don't know you

i don't reckon...

Rational

rational...

i yielded to you

i spoke to you

could you not disagree with me

i'm just yet to be born

shallow life

disgrace

indignity

how i could presume your existence if you're not stick to my plan?

weird, such a weird feeling of a man who could think about and care about himself...

rational..

you face such a misery in time being...

such rational thing turns irrationals

vice versa

yet, to whom i should stand behind?

when it comes to problems and controversy


oh my,

the world is at stake

none, keeping their heads straight

none, keeping their mind clean


should i follow this trickery

or should i stand on my ground and witness the world crumbles with its already degrading morale..


oh my,

i just wanna life

with only pure rational

consciousness

i think i could handle things by myself
i think the world care about me..

shit, i'm fooled..

it tricked me..

i hate to say that i am not ready
not prepared
not even close to settle

words can't help me turn things off
it only stirs
clamors..

keep my head straight..
keep my mind sane..

i got to get my consciousness

i yelled to Thee...

no answer..

i begged for miracle

none happening..


this is the time to guttered myself
hoping someone help me to sober...

i wish you understand
i wish you not to blame..
i wish you know my existence

i ain't not ready for this
no fucking kidding..

throw me to the ocean
drown me along with my intuition
with my fucking admiration..

do you hear me?

hemorrhage

hemorrhage,


i feel pain, bloody painful
my nerve is shaking
my head is trembling

hemorrhage, hemorrhage, hemorrhage...

i know what you feel, but you don't know mine
i feel your pain, but you don't feel mine

hemorrhage, hemorrhage, hemorrhage...

end this feeling to end this madness
end this bleeding to end this emptiness

you know what?

You know what,

i'm fucked up..

you said i got my sense, that's bullshit..

i ain't got nothing..

just distance..


unreliable dogma
unrealistic truth

i swear to myself to follow none of that mystical being
devil tries to seduce me with its lust and desire

with those fucking horrific nonsensitive graphics

fuck, fuck those portrayal fuck those libido

i ain't got nothing real

promises, promises, and promises

fuck, my world is fucking doomed



i wish i could erase those memories

restart my brain and begin load friendlier image

fresh thought

fresh mind


oh God, i wish you could be the one that shows me a way...

this madness is killing me..

is killing me..

no title

i hate to say to myself that i felt so ruined

ruined by my fucking desire and lust...

i said to my self that i am a strong guy

but it turns out i'm just a fucking weakling

i can't handle myself

i can't handle my fucking desire..

so??

i lost to something that i always be my fantasy...

fuck i say to my fantasy!!!

now, i want to grow myself better...

no such this and that fantasy..

enough with that shit..

enough with that nonsense

enough wasting time


now it's time to move

it's time to improve

it's time to unrevealed the things

i know i can

i know...

No Such Pain cannot be Endured

you pain you bleed

you pain you sick

you pain you die

such an unbearable feeling rushing in the nerve...

sickening deep... torturing body and soul...

am i set into the fire?

i cannot stand the feeling

such an empty soul... trying to capture a piece of light...

is this it?

eternal darkness waiting down deep in a sea of nothingness...

i scream to myself "No Such Pain cannot be Endured"

and i found morphine...

is that the answer?

i shout "No"

pain is a state of mind...

it is trickery...

i shall find my will...

shall i???

all in a silent...

all in a silent

not really know what happen

all in a silent

am i only one sicken

all in a silent

or stricken by the burden


but all in a silent

can i get freedom

all in a silent

or only just boredom


it's all in a silent

that my mind flew

all in a silent

my body blew


all in a silent...
all in a silent...

Me and myself

when blackness conquers your mind...

do you refuse?

or you let it in?

my heart had already blacken by hatred...

i loathe to my empty soul, it won't scream, pierced by hollow sword...

i thirst to light...

i endeavor the scattering glasses...

but, it never satisfy my delight...

i need a true knight...

i don't need an empty night...

my soul wanders...

i could not find any gate...

all empty...

anguish, perish...

my soul weeps...

silenced by the mourning creeps...

my soul sleeps...

waiting to be awaken by the chirps

Cast Away

I'm being cast away by the wave

Struggling for my liberty

Yet, I'm motionless...

Cannot feel the way the sunlight burns

Cannot feel the wind blows

Buried deep in the sands of hollow

Torn apart by the tide of despair

am I going to die?

No...

I could still see the horizon

I won't let my hope perished as the sun goes down...

I am going to see the stars